who is jesus christ part 3

people have this debate regarding whether or not jesus was raised from the dead...i do not fall into this category of individuals...how do i know he was raised from the dead??? simple...i have seen him...right in front of me in a friends kitchen...there i was getting a beer out of the fridge...and there was jesus...and to make it even more interesting...i got home and  my bible was opened to a chapter in daniel that was describing jesus in the exact same way he appeared to me...just thought i would mention it .

who is jesus christ part 2

the loch ness monster

it is my considered opinion that...many years ago...a sea creature of sorts...swam into a place we humans call loch ness...ate some fish...was seen by a few locals...realized there was not enough fish in the place...then swam away again...and then the stories began...each one just a bit more colorful than the one before...and so it is with religion...god spoke to jesus...god spoke to others as well...then the prophet was gone...and we were left to twist this information around in any way we so desired...and we still do...until this very day...the end .

who is jesus christ part 1

being human part 12

it is all just a big misunderstanding...jesus did not come to begin a new religion...he came to get rid of the ones we had established...he had one thing to say...just love each other...religion murdered him...and not much has changed...jews murdered jesus , you say??? nope...it was the human condition that murdered jesus...the jews just happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time...religion is mans attempt to simulate god when they figure god cannot simulate himself...here is the shit...the greater the concept...the darker it gets when it all goes wrong...point...when love goes wrong...it really goes to hell...good people go to church...good people are everywhere...but if you really want a reasonable chance at becoming human...(that is...complete your destiny)...make sure you are in community that embraces who and what you are...weaknesses and all...organic not generic community...live love .

being a friend...whitehorse pages part 1

love is in our midst in its most powerful manifestation when one loves another more than oneself...god is no fool...god is most present in the beauty of love...love is the divine in its most powerful form...to invite love...is to invite god...which brings us to friendship...friendship is not a thing in itself...friendship is who you are and who another is taken into a person to person dynamic...you will not see the relationship become greater than the amount of love within the two individuals involved...that is to say...you cannot truly be with another as a friend or in any capacity until you begin the journey of becoming human...(the journey of love)...jackson browne once said..."once you find a friend who will care...suddenly the others are so much easier to bear"...point well taken...love is rare...how do we know a friendship is real??? 1-transparency...2-intuition...3-suffering for another...(look how your friend is treating others and do the math)...4-following your path...(only on your true path will you meet who you are supposed to meet)...and 5-joy...god in the midst brings joy...find a friend...be a friend...and live love .

barky mc ruff-ruff meets god

one day barky was going for a walk...and he came upon god...he said to god..."hi god"...god just smiled and nodded...then they both went on their merry way...that is all that happened...nothing more...nope...not one little bit...zero...but i should add this little tid-bit , however...whoever god is or is not...one thing for sure...he brings peace...love and understanding...this neurotic concept of god that prevails in our world...is...in fact...the absence of god...point being...if your god leads you into fear...judgment...or violence...then get yourself another god...me gotta go .

barky mc ruff ruff meets flarm

one day barky mc ruff-ruff went for a walk...and came across flarmony snar-nar-nar...THE FLARMONY SNAR-NAR-NAR...you know...hit books...an album...eight year publication...and that classic poem :
"more than all else / i want a dog / named flarmony snar-nar-nar / although i must admit / at present / i have a dog / named rover / but it is not the same / he is much too tame / and too docile by far / there is no substitute / for a recruit / named flarmony snar-nar-nar / every day / we would go for a drive / on the road / by the sea / and in leaving town / we would slow down / to cries of "hello flarmony "/ then he would kindly bark / and lick my face / and sit back in the car / the stereo loud / one hand on the wheel / one petting flarmony snar-nar nar"...barky looked at flarm...and said..."hello flarmony"...flarm smiled...said "hi"...and continued on his way...and that is about all that happened...that's it...oh , yes...there is one point here...in gods eyes...be you the most famous pooch in the world...or just a little barky mc ruff-ruff...we are all the same...me gotta go .

barky mc ruff-ruff and the three headed monster

one day barky went for a walk by the ocean...and suddenly...out of the water...appeared a three headed monster...he was about 60 yards high...covered in scales...and had really sharp , pointy teeth...so barky did the only thing he could do...he pulled out a chocolate bar...swiss , of course...took a bite...and proclaimed..."this is one good fucking chocolate bar"...and that is about all that happened...nothing else...oh , but one thing i should point out here , however...sometimes in life...you simply cannot change your circumstances...and in those moments of no control...so take control of yourself...enjoy your chocolate bar...maybe your chocolate bar is a good book...maybe your chocolate bar is sitting under your favorite tree...maybe your chocolate bar is an actual chocolate bar...regardless...whatever life throws at you...cease the moment...me gotta go .

barky mc ruff-ruff and the cold hearted cobra

once upon a time...there was a dog named barky mc ruff-ruff...one day barky went for a walk and came upon a bull terrier by the name of oreo...now the thing about a bull terrier...is that they can actually bite through a parking meter...but that did not concern barky one little bit...mainly because he does not drive a car...anyway...barky continued his journey and eventually stumbled upon a cold hearted cobra...the end...that is it...nothing more...oh , yes...just one thing...the reason why barky was not concerned about  any of this...is simple...he lived a wonderful life...and a life well lived...is a life full of peace...no matter what may come...so the next time you run across a cold hearted cobra...feed it some peanuts...take it to a movie...just ask yourself one little question...what would barky do???

barky mc ruff-ruff and kevin

one day...barky mc ruff-ruff went for a walk and came across kevin...you know??? kevin...of kevins fried chicken...the chicken baron kevin...so kevin says to barky..."wanna piece of chicken???"...immediately barky has a flashback to his puppy-hood...eating a bucket of that stuff...and proceeding to spend the next two solid days on the toilet...(and the days , my friend...were the only things that were solid)...so barky says..."no thank you"...and went on his way...and that is all that happened...noting else...zero...oh , yes...i just have to add something here however...your memories are who you are...and it is a sad puppy who has to reflect on a life time of regrets...you know...selfish acts...and things like that...so live every moment in love...me gotta go .

barky mc ruff-ruff and the loch ness monster

one day...barky mc ruff-ruff decided to go to scotland to find the loch ness monster...so he got on a plane and flew to glasco...and there it was...right at the airport...watching the planes take off...the one and only...the loch ness monster...and that is about all that happened...not much more...barky sniffed his bum...(the loch ness monsters bum...not his own)...and went on his way...but just one more thing...just because you believe in something...does not make it true...and just because you do not believe in something...does not make it untrue...but whatever you believe in...make sure it does not hurt anybody...me gotta go .

barky mc ruff-ruff and the temple of lost souls

one day...this spiritual THING appeared to barky and said..."i am taking you to the temple of lost souls"...since there was nothing on the television...barky decided that it would not be a half bad idea...so they went...there , against all odds...barky found a tavern and proceeded to have a couple of beers...fax 10 , to be specific...and that is about it...nothing really happened...the end...oh , yea...one more point...it is not really where you are at...but who you are when you get there...and who you are with is important as well...me gotta go .

barky mc ruff-ruff goes to hollywood

one day barky went to hollywood...and there he saw a plethora of movie stars...he said hi to them all...but... besides mel gibson...they did not return the greeting...and that is all that happened...nothing else...nope!!! not a thing...but i just got to mention this...if your fame...your bank account...anything really...leads you away from connecting with other human beings...then it is all just a bunch of crap...worse than crap actually...crap never prevents anyone from fulfilling their purpose on this strange little planet...and...me gotta go .

how to discern love part 2

how to get real

1-face the fact of the matter...the world is a cult...people want you to be like them...that way they can feel good about themselves...2-move away...begin to be real...3-become a slave to love...only in this slavery...do we get real..(quite the paradox , eh???) 4-watch everything around you change...and adapt to your new living conditions...5-"sooner or later...it all gets real...walk on"...neil young .

how to discern love part 1

being human part 17

it is the heart...not the actions that define the condition of the human being...and it seems the more beautiful the heart...the stranger the actions...as the pure spirit sees no need to hide behind sterile , contrived behavior...sometimes beautiful...is ugly...sometimes love...is found in the ditch...do not be fooled...nothing is as it seems...winning the lottery...may be the most horrible thing that ever happened to you...indeed...there are blessings and curses...but it is the spirit and spirituality that sorts the entire thing out...what you see before you...is not real...live love .

the canadian election...honest campaign slogans

-jack layton...there is a lot worse than dweeb
-micheal agnaliaf...who in the fuck does not have ulterior motives?
-steve harper...why would you not want to vote for someone who never masturbated???

dealing with depression part 6

one final point

i was engaged to a doctor once...and the one thing about that relationship that was not traumatic...was the unbelievably huge spreads that the drug companies put on...that is to say...drug companies and the medical profession have a very intimate and binding relationship...remember this before you proceed to ingest the first thing that the doctor offers...just something to keep in mind .

dealing with depression part 5

conclusion

nobody has the right to judge you for being in some type of depression or another...in fact...anyone who does...keep away from them...depression is like any other type of illness...it is there for the specific reason of being resolved...surround yourself with good people...both medically and in terms of relationship...as for the work place...nobody has the right to treat you badly there either...and one final though...do not be too hard on yourself...you may not be able to choose your relatives...but you can choose to love yourself...luv stu

dealing with depression part 4

resolution

there are many tools to help with this issue :

1-drugs...the positive side is that they can help...but even here there is a caution...if the symptoms disappear...there is a huge possibility that the underlying cause will not be dealt with...therefore...you could be on the drugs for the rest of your life...furthermore...the second time around for using drugs as the tool for resolution...odds are...you become a "lifer"...that is to say...you will probably be stuck with them...and their wonderful side effects...until the day you die .

2-exercise...far more safe...and it makes it far more easy to take the real problems seriously...(remember...the depression is not the problem...it is the symptom)...and furthermore...a good cardiovascular work out is the equivalent to a mild antidepressant.

3-people...without help...of many sorts...counseling...acceptance...there will be no resolution .

dealing with depression part 3

discovery

quite obviously...the first step of dealing with depression...is to know exactly why you are depressed...unfortunately...this is not as easy as it sounds...that is to say...there is usually more that one reason why one is depressed...to be specific...there is usually one major factor and a few minor factors that contribute to depression...what is needed...the proper tools :

1-humility...to look inside
2-compassion...if you cannot accept what you find...the journey is futile
3-motivation...it is far easier just to stay in bed
4-community...this cannot be done alone
5-intelligence...once things come to the surface...they have to be sorted out and dealt with properly

...so you are there...you have discovered you are in a depression...and you have discovered why...what next???

dealng with depression part 2

the fact of the matter

the fact of the matter is that it is very easy to fool ourselves into thinking that we are not depressed...when we are fooling ourselves in this respect...it is referred to as acclimatization...and by that i mean...we can get so used to living a particular mode of existence...that we are no longer aware of the state of our minds and our emotions...there is no simple answer to deal with this...but what does help...is a list of potential symptoms :

1-loss of appetite...or increased appetite
2-loss of desire to do and achieve
3-weakness
4-nausea
5-loss of sex drive
6-dizziness
7-feeling emotionally low for an extended period of time
8-shakes
9-broken sleep patterns
10-despair

dealing with depression part 1

not what but who

depression is not so much a thing as it is a who...by that i mean it virtually has a mind of its own...it has many symptoms...only some of which will infiltrate the pesonhood of a particular individual...that is to say...it will discern what your weakness is...then attack...for example...odds are...depression will never manifest itself as lack of sex drive in the body of a thirteen year old boy...mood swings are very common at that age...therefore...it is more than likely that this will be one of the key symptoms within the child .

the bottom line is this....depression is your enemy...and in order to defeat your enemy...you must first understand how and where it is going to attack...you cannot fight what you cannot see .

how to reach your potential part 2

dynamics of interpretation of events

1-things happen to us...2-we internalize and contemplate...3-all is viewed with...love...forgiveness...and creativity...4-we act upon our new understanding of things...5-the people around us help us to discern the fruits of our actions .

how to reach your potential part 1

being human part 25

i am walking to this...place...(to get some bubble bath)...anyway...i find two labels from pop bottles...the bottles had obviously been smashed...but they were nowhere to be found...just the upper half of the labels...with my name written on them...i am thinking...how is this possible??? next week...i return...there are three...the week after...four...i am aware of the existence of "stewarts pop"...i am also aware that the condition i am finding the labels...and the fact that there is no broken glass...just makes the event freakier by the second...i go home...i meditate...i open a bible...it says...more or less..."your beauty is found in your brokenness"...oh , yes...did i mention that the labels were just behind the house where i grew up...the very place i was broken into pieces??? to become actualized is to take what has been given you...whatever it is...embrace it...let the pain and sorrow...simply lead you into a greater and greater love...live luv.

how to make love real

being human part 24

when life is no longer organic...real...we opt for what is commonly referred to as an institution...it is like water without the wet...propping something up to work...when it is truly broken...this is fine with things and workplaces...it is not fine with spirituality...the inner man needs and craves love...the idea of presenting a love substitute...(a rough calculation of what love may or may not be like)...is insane...it is real that heals the human condition...reality in its flaws and all else...do not manipulate any situation in regards to the human heart...simply let love take its course...live love .

barky mc ruff-ruff goes to toronto

one day barky decided to go to toronto and take in a hocky game...thing is...when he tried to get a ticket...the ticket lady just pointed to a sign that read..."no dogs allowed"..."poop"..."and double poop"...barky mc ruff-ruff said...and that is about all that happpened...oh...just let me add one little thing...in your average hocky game...there is all sorts of scum in attendance...cursing...abusing...being generally unkind to each other...nobody seems to care about that...so why should they persecute a sweet little dog...SO GET YOUR FUCKING PRIORITIES STRAIGHT!!!

believe it or not

a long time ago...this lady and i went for a walk...she wanted to talk to me about her child...you see...her boy began to spend time with this other boy...and they were pretending to be brothers...thing is...unknown to both kids...they were brothers...the oldest  was given up for adoption at birth...and now...15 years or so later...the universe brought him back to her doorstep...pretending to be her son...there are forces at work here , puppy-cats...shit none of  us can understand...but somehow...someday...it will all make sense...luv stu   

tarantula

i was 18 years old...first year university...(or uni...as they refer to it in australia)...i walk into this second hand book store...i ask the fellow working there..."do you have a copy of bob dylan's tarantula???"...he replies..."no"...i look to the shelves about 20 yards away...the wall had thousands of books on it...10 or 12 feet high...20 feet long...my response..."there it is"...i make my way to the back of the store and grab it...oh , yes...one more thing...if you ever read that particular volume of poetry...you will quickly understand where my writing style comes from...luv stu

november 1994

i had just lost everything...girlfriend...reputation...money..."family"...health...and where did i find myself??? walking some young lady to school because some idiot x-boyfriend got himself a gun and was going to take a shot at her...i was in the process of developing post traumatic stress...this was not helping...anyway...the boy actually did show up with a gun...and a teacher wrestled him to the ground...apparently...moments before we arrived at school...and what happened to this young lady??? she was soon to leave our ministry and progress to bigger and better things...now i do not want to "blow sunshine up my ass"...but if someone places your needs far beyond their own...think long and fucking hard before you flush the relationship down the toilet...because...maybe...you are not being a wise little owl...maybe...just maybe...you are self destructive .

April 6

barky mc ruff-ruff and the pop psychology pirates

one day barky went for a walk and came across the pop psychology pirates...they said...and i quote : "arrrr , matie...we rape, pillage and fight and travel the sea to overcompensate for our homosexual tendencies"...barky just gave a slight growl...turned...and went home and ordered out for pizza...and that is about it...nothing more really...but one more thing...most human behavior is an overcompensating for who they really are inside...just thought i would mention that .

artificial life support april 2 2011

we remain alive long after we are dead
dynamics :
1-we are alive
2-life is challenged in some of many ways
3-the spirit dies within
4-artificial life support
 -  joy becomes addiction
 -  sex becomes perversion
 -  kindness becomes materialism
5-life is no longer spiritual...but a series of physical functions

there is another type of death...that is...death to the aspects of life that cause this deterioration to happen in the first place...we die to self ...so our real identity can be awaken and flourish...it is a paradox...in losing ourselves we find ourselves...the following is a list of dynamics that ruin this process :
  pride
  laziness
  status seeking
  numbness
  co-dependence

ultimately...we die to life...or we die to LIVE LUV

bob dylan

bob dylan said of george thorogood...that they...(meaning the destroyers)...were the worst band in the world...goerge replied by saying..."it is an honor to be called the worst by the best"...point : you just do not see that type of humility...unbelievable!!!  

modes of human existance

essentially...there are three modes of human existence :

1-religion...a bunch of relatively arbitrary ideas thrown together...and defended by the notion that some higher being or beings...or whatever...subscribe to the same principals
2-systematic thinking...at this point...something has to be considered wrong because of a cause and effect dynamic...for example...masturbation being a sin...has to be now accompanied with the question..."why???"
3-love...the true lover...has embraced  a higher power...(sometimes consciously...sometimes not)...and lives for the  quest of good things

the irony is that the worst of these three...attempts to disguise itself as the best...LIVE LUV

as a footnote...it should be mentioned that there can be aspects of each number within the confines of each mode...for example...i once attended a church that was very religious...however...when convenient would switch into systematic thinking...fear...laziness...and lust...are huge motivators in this respect 

how to find our lost soul...being human part 9

there are parts of us all that are missing...the typical human response to this is to deal with the situation by :

1-hardening ourselves off
2-overcompensating / lying
3-expending energy to redirect the neurosis

these are all bad ideas...what is missing within...is the very thing that can bring us together in love..."my strength is made perfect in your weakness" :

1-let the road teach us what we lack...do not judge or criticize yourself...but learn
2-allow a powerful love to enter...maybe not to set you free...maybe to set you free...love will decide that for you
3-allow people...trustworthy people...to be part of the journey

 LIVE LOVE

how almost dying may have saved my life

the summer before last...making a long story short...i was poisoned...three months later...i went for a job interview and did not get the job...i suspect...because i looked...(i was having a mild flair-up from the poisoning)...like i could cause them a lot of money in regards to health care...where was the job??? in japan...funny how life works out some times .