november 1994

i had just lost everything...girlfriend...reputation...money..."family"...health...and where did i find myself??? walking some young lady to school because some idiot x-boyfriend got himself a gun and was going to take a shot at her...i was in the process of developing post traumatic stress...this was not helping...anyway...the boy actually did show up with a gun...and a teacher wrestled him to the ground...apparently...moments before we arrived at school...and what happened to this young lady??? she was soon to leave our ministry and progress to bigger and better things...now i do not want to "blow sunshine up my ass"...but if someone places your needs far beyond their own...think long and fucking hard before you flush the relationship down the toilet...because...maybe...you are not being a wise little owl...maybe...just maybe...you are self destructive .