god making earth

winning nov. 17 2012

everyone loves being on the winning team...DYNAMICS : fallen creature , grasping for : 1-sex , 2-money , 3-power...befriending those who we feel  will aid us on our journey , we leave behind the others , usually while wearing a disguise of "righteousness" as we do it...then comes the bastardization of the poor fuckers...eventually we forget about them and move on...ON A ROAD THAT OFFERS SWEET FUCK ALL...as pursuing the life of self will never get you anywhere , no matter how good it may appear !!! 

a thirteen year old boy

a thirteen year old boy , back in 1980 or so , said to me...and i quote : "my mother doesn't realize that love is not like a pie...there aren't six pieces and then it's gone"...now you tell me this...how could a 13 year old kid know so much...and the average adult know so little ???

hot space december 22 2012

we all have some area in our heart that has been damaged for life...and it is only in the confines of a loving community that this hurt can be compensated for...POINT : it is not so much the resolution of our issue that should be our concerned...it should be accepted , embraced and never be able to slip into the realm of our subconscious mind...HOWEVER...in regards to community...for giving us the strength we need for dealing with our wound...how do we make it happen ??? and all that can be said here is...in good time...love will attract love...but be on the look out...my suspicion is...real love...very seldom is seen for what it is !!! 

dr. goose

timmy : dr. goose , what is this world coming to ???

dr. goose : i don't know , timmy...last night i was walking
                 home from tuesday night sunday school and someone
                 pulled out a gun and asked me for my money

dr. goose : i told him that i would give him some money
                 if he would let me see his bird 

dr. goose : at this point , the dumb fuck proceeded to swear at me

dr. goose : so i picked up a rock and smashed his head open
                 with it

timmy : that's just terrible , dr. goose

dr. goose : if you mean by terrible , the size of his cock...
                 you are absolutely right  

true romance

the fact of the matter is...you have just about two years (maximum) after you "fall in love" for the relationship to be developed and cultivated to the point of maturity...if this has not happened by this time...the emotion of "love" will have worn off...leaving you with a hollow an empty shadow of a romantic relationship...roughly translated...you have to employ healthy and strategic weapons  to cultivate the relationship into a healthy and strategic direction...these are : community...(love as an island onto itself will grow stagnant like a swamp with no rivers leading to it).../ transparency...(secrets in  intimacy...are cancer).../ giving...(only as we give do we truly receive) / forgiveness / and ...faithfulness...everyone thinks they are exceptions to this dynamic...they are not .

the mind...

a thousand things right and one thing wrong...and a particular individual will only see the wrong...then there is the other fucker...a thousand things wrong and one thing right...and all that is seen is the right...and this , my dear puppy-cat...is essentially how the average person can justify anything...the mind is a tricky little fucker !!!

people in this world

there are two types of people in this world...the kind that pursue love...and , as a result...have the door to a billion unanswered questions opened right in front of them...(these people are very rare )...and the kind who find their own desires paramount...they become pawns and slaves to powers they do not comprehend...and their purpose is to inadvertently live out gods will in spite of who and what they have become ...ironic , is it not ??? in loving god we find ourselves...emotionally , spiritually and geographically...in wanting our own way...our personhood fades...and our lives become much similar to that of the gentlemen on star trek...who are simply there to allow kirk , spock and company to reach their "human" potential...it is all very simple , actually..."he who finds his soul will lose it...he who loses it...will find it".

belief system

origin of religions :

1-god speaks
2-someone listens
3-they interpret through their own  limited understanding
4-write it down
5-other people interpret as meaning is slowly lost

religion is more about mans understanding of god than it is god...religion is cursed : man contrived / saturated with a law that ruins the human heart / self righteous ( 10% of the o.t.is "god" telling the jewish nation to exterminate those of any other different religion)

love is the opposite of religion...yet love "reveals all things"...which makes it dangerous...it is easy to hide behind religion
live luv

hide point of view

beliefs

most of what people believe...simply is not true :

1-a belief
2-because of : upbringing...pleasure...society
3-never questioned
4-defended
5-effects the universe...others pay

how do we find truth???

1-every situation is either an opportunity to learn or justify
2-walk in humility
3-truth is congruent with love
4-prepare to suffer
5-laziness is your enemy
6-find intimate community
7-love everything...desire nothing

never believe that truth can be separated from love   

intimacy / no fear

there are various ways people "achieve" intimacy : rituals / not caring...(nothing to lose if you don't give) / co-dependence / mistaking sex for intimacy / true intimacy...OF COURSE  , only one of these actually works...the others will eventually all fall apart...make no mistake...what we do...what we achieve...social status...our abilities...all of these things can actually get in the way of true intimacy...intimacy is fearlessly disclosing your true identity to another...and if your identity is pathetic...then i understand why intimacy is avoided...point : you can only give what you have...so make sure what you have is...beautiful !!!  

selfish giant

the wind dec. 15 2012

the average person goes where they desire to go...being driven by : lust / lack of commitment toward another / a better deal / boardom...the bottom line is that there is only one thing that should take us to our destinations in life : THE WIND...roughly translated...a DIVINE pull that leads us to where we should be...making our circular trip across our own little universe...into a supernatural journey...indeed...we find our reasons to abandon each other...making ourselves never at fault...then we continue...with even a lesser understanding of what love is all about...HOWEVER...life can be so much richer than this !!!      

perspective is everything

..so this fellow walked up to me recently and said..."you are the biggest ass hole i know"...i replied..."whatever i do...i try to do to the best of my ability"...point...perspective is everything...and not only that...it is the condition of our heart that defines the situation...a man living in a shack...in tune with the divine...in tune with love...has a far more rich life than an your average individual who lives i a castle .

jehova slugs

an ode to a springer spanial

this gentleman despised his springer spaniel because it could not fight very well...totally omitting the fact that it was his idea to buy a springer spaniel in the first place .

bastard windows

"live love" blog consists of my hit book..."bastard windows"...read all about me staggering through western europe  !!!

names

how to experience life : 

1-experience
2-resent it : unforgiveness...bitterness...hatred
3-do not learn a thing
4-fall away from love
5-overcompensate : shut down...self righteousness...deceit

how life should be experienced :

1-experience
2-embrace : forgive...let go...love...(sees all things)
3-learn
4-become more whole
5-instruct others : beauty...humility...transparency

our suffering is death
which either actually kills our spirit...or leads us to new life
nadifa...in a season of death...there will be new life 

giving

why do people give???

1-guilt
2-control
3-approval
4-feel good
5-love

giving should be a spiritual thing
our giving says much about our sexuality...there is no real difference 

how to give :

1-in love
2-without resentment
3-freely...just like love...unconditional
4-as much as you can...(people try to institutionalize giving...this is a substitute for love)
5-with wisdom...prayerfully

as christ gave unto you...give onto others

the power of an apple

extrapulation

someone does something you don't like...response : anger / fear / self righteous judgment...non of which place you in a position of learning something...how should we respond??? an event : we process...(grief / anger / etc.) we pray...(forgiveness / allowing light to enter / we settle)...we learn...we extrapolate...most only learn that they don't like a particular event...it takes  real insight...in love and humility...to turn something into a real learning experience...love sees all things...love protects you from going around the same circle again and again...live luv .   

eye of the needle part 2

love is a very small fraction of what is going on in human relationships...exchange is more than 99%...that is to say..."i give you what you want...you give me what i want"...and this is why prostitution is so looked down upon...it is an honest , transparent...representation how people conduct their daily lives...oh , yes...we like to pretend there is integrity and other such things involved...but the hard cold fact of the matter is that people simply want what they want...and spend a life time of learning how to get it .
...and one more thing...family does not count...we are biologically predisposed to take care of our families...and anyone who does not...generally speaking...is a monster .
point...in love...all things become real...in love...all things are exposed...and you will know if another is truly  pursuing love...that is to say...their whole body , mind and soul...will reek of its desire to obtain just a little bit of the divine .

slug holy rollers

evil and redemption

a child is abused by an evil mother...for the rest of his life he is attracted to evil women for the purpose of making a feeble attempt to resolve his inner conflict...result...he thinks the world is completely evil...how could he not ???

 
dynamics :

1-hurt
2-people become metaphors...to meet needs 
3-become angry...(not working out)
4-suspicious of wrong people
5-suspicious of everyone else
6-in darkness...so cannot see a thing...being paranoid is not being wise
7-fold

...the cure is not complete resolution...you are who you are...the cure is becoming aware of who you are and responding accordingly

dynamics :

1-hurt
2-people become metaphors
3-become humble / aware / repentant / forgiving
4-attracted to same type of people...
5-but this time they are on a path of healing
6-god guiles
7-become human...embrace who you are

god healed my broken arm

motivation

"why" is usually more important than "what"
becoming purely motivated

1-want to do something
2-met with love...prayer...suffering
3-is it still there?
4-an action  happens
5-results are evaluated

paradox...good motivations not only justify actions...but they also change them

bad motivations:

1-want to do something
2-met with selfishness...arrogance...pride
3-usually still there
4-action happens
5-justified                                                          

love makes all the difference in the world

funerals and regrets november 24 2012

mourning can be sadness and the sincere loss of a loved one...but most of the time..these are just qualities intertwined with a deep longing and regret for the way things should have been...but were not...that is to say...we take our...fears...conventions...secrets...ill feelings...and lack of resolution into our relationships...never really attempt to do anything about them...and wonder why there are 15 walls to every one bridge...and wonder why we fall apart at the end of their life...INDEED..there are far healthier things to take into a relationship...like...transparency...boldness...freedom...and a desire to resolve personal hurt...(effecting ourselves and all around us)...IN THE END...the more we love...the less we regret...and the more a departure of a loved one...can be a celebration of a life well lived .   

the destroyer

there is this tennis player...he calls himself "the destroyer"...he has a fake head on top of his real one...he screams , hollers and breaks shit right over his opponents head...i mean..fuck...he is really  fucking cool .

what would jesus do ???

a brief look at community development...scroll down to the beginning

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  5-be a warrior...no retreat no surrender...live love...even if it kills you...and it will.
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  4-reveal all...no secrets...organic community needs lots of sunlight.
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  3-nurture the gifts of others...community means just that.
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  2-let go of your idea of a destination...love will take it...wherever it so desires.
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  1-problem solve without force.
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  how to live organically :
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  5-allows for secret lives...deceit is within the fabric of generic community...for example...if you think all the sexual abuse in the catholic church has been exposed...you are sadly mistaken...generic is built to marry itself with such behavior.
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  4-no responsibility...organic essentially subscribes to the dynamic : "greater love has no man than this...that he gives his life for his brother"...generic community only gives this superficial "lip service".
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  3-will fit in this social structure...love is vary rare...and makes people uncomfortable...our society hinges on exchange with each other.
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  2-allows one to avoid intimacy...formulas just dont allow for real communication.
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  1-it is easy...make a plan...(appeal to a certain demographic and such)...then proceed.
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  question...why choose generic ???
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  organic has a life span...lives and dies like a human...generic can last forever , as there is no real life to begin with.
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  organic is aware of fear...and what fear can potentially do to the community...generic obeys fear...uses it as an excuse to facilitate patterns and behaviors.
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  organic is real...things are seen for what they are...generic perpetuates behaviors to hide behind.
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  organic community loves the people involved...generic uses them for its advantage...how they are treated is relative to the purpose and goals.
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  organic community has spiritual dynamics to drive it in a particular direction...finding "success" along the way...generic has success as a goal.
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  the difference between organic and generic community :
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  leadership embraces the gifts of those in the community...they are encouraged and allowed to grow.
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  leadership is transparent...no secrets in real community...secrets grow and become something very dangerous.
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  leadership has no agenda...an agenda is a finite idea and will decay and rot...no matter how good it seems...all is done by spiritual direction...love rules.
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  leadership is virtually invisible...there is no control...just watching eyes that are ready to deal with a volatile situation inconspicuously as possible.
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  leadership "shoots for the stars and hits the moon"...that is to say...love has consumed the life of the leader...love is imparted and partially understood...bit by bit.
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  if community does not appear to be insane...it probably is not real...the power that develops community is so much more brilliant than ourselves...we simply cannot understand it...the direction it leads us...the same.
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  (i will suggest you now look at my page..."speak your mind"...there you will eventually find some of my stories of living a life that is either a complete miracle...or makes me the biggest bullshitter in the world...that is...the art of letting go...will take you into uncharted waters).
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  at this point...may i introduce to you...god...no matter what you refer to it as...there is a power that takes life in a particular direction...most fight against it...to build community...you must take off all your clothes...(pride and ambition)...dive in the river...and let it take you wherever in the hell it wants...resistance will be successful...that is...you will be screwed...give into love...do not look back.
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  a community will reflect the leadership...if you are a miserable bastard...the community will go down that path...roughly translated...you must die to self...you must die to your preconceived notion of what the community should be like...and the desire to control must be replaced with the compassion of protecting those around you at any cost.
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  so far...i have hopefully established that people love to control more than they love to love...left at this point...all is lost...however...now begins the journey...forsaking the counterfeit of love...control...and replacing it with the real thing.
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  3-power...the most powerful leadership...is the leadership that can make the community essentially...powerless...great leadership can take away the power struggle...hence...allow room for love to flourish...to have power and use it to resolve power struggle is true leadership
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  2-money...the best way to form community is to reduce the financial aspect to its minimum...money will quickly smother the love dynamic...deceit and such will quickly enter the picture.
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  1-sex...with love...develops ones personhood...without love...is just another form of getting ones way...hence...there is manipulation.
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  human nature without the inspiration of love...is driven by control and manipulation...there are three dynamics behind this :
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  5-western mindset-everything must appear sterile and pleasant...community is messy and uneven as it develops.
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  4-pride-to be open to real community is to humble oneself...to place others in front of you and your needs.
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  3-power-we see it as a defining characteristic...to have power over others makes us feel superior...(in reality...it simply makes us savages).
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  2-laziness...to learn love is to sacrifice all that we are...hence...we believe that there must be an easier way.
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  1-fear-to have no control over a situation is to have no power...though power is only an illusion anyway.
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  why we manipulate...instead of allowing community to grow organically :
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  recently...i heard a story of how a cat killed a crow and made his way back inside his house...next day...when he was let outside...there were 30 crows waiting to pounce...violence aside...this is a clear example of organic community.
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  so...this company hired a community development specialist to put on a weekend retreat and figure out who was the "shit disturber"...sure enough...half way through ..."problem child"...blew up all over the place and the "cat was out of the bag"...problem solved , eh??? nope...the issue is...only the symptom had been dealt with...why someone got into position to usurp the company was still a mystery...there is a difference between looking smart and truly directing others into health.
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  i have had the opportunity to spend time with some of the most esteemed community builders in the world...and they all had one thing in common...they didnt know what they were doing...sure...learning how to manipulate and control people can be made into quite the art form...but it is not community...and when truth rears its ugly head...things will indeed fall apart...the ingredients to real community are transparency...pain...humility...selflessness and passion...it is a long , ugly journey...and if someone tells you different...they are wrong.