the reconstruction nov. 19 2011

the essential value of the human being that has not given their life away in the pursuit of love...is to reconstruct a false world around himself in order to maintain some sort of  illusions...it goes like this : 1-man has fallen from grace...(whatever that means to you)...2-does not give a fuck about his predicament...3-therefore has to change the world to suit him...4-applies tools to obtain this goal : a) fear...b) self righteous judgment...c) manipulation...d) deceit...e) allies...and 5-has a brand new universe...and this my friends...is what actually separates us from god...religion may attempt to convince you otherwise...(that is its soul purpose)...non-the-less...to reconstruct your universe...is to deconstruct your soul..."seek you first the kingdom of god" and...what will be added onto you...you will be added onto you .   

the phone...from the book / 'there is a fly in my dingo wombat"

i bought this wonderful phone
it was fantastic
problem was
not only did it not
come with a battery
but no battery
in the history of the universe
was ever made to fit it
so i invited people over to see it
and whenever they wanted to use it
i would make up some story
like your wife called
and said that your mother just died
or some shit like that
anything
just to change the subject

strange days

for whatever reason...i was having a conversation about the cuban missile crisis...get in the car a few minutes later...there was a song on the radio about the cuban missile crisis...two hours later...i have a very specific thought...in seconds...i see a car across the street with my thought written on the back window... next...i see a car sponsored by propeller brewery...look down on the ground...a propeller brewery bottle cap...what does this all mean??? you ask...is it a coincidence ??? there was this guy in a rock band once...he died in a motorbike accident...at the exact same spot where his fellow band member died in a motorbike accident...strange days indeed . 

do you believe in angels???

if you look in my blog archives...about a few months ago...you will read that a fellow , in the comments said..."nice to talk to you again"...thing is...i did not talk to him again...have not talked to him for a long time...now , if he is absolutely sure that he talked with me...(on the street)...but it was not me...then one has to ask the question...who in the fuck did he talk to??? 

all the world is a cult

the entire world is a cult...everybody has their little set of arbitrary rules that they violently impose upon others...our differences should be celebrated...not disdained...there should be only one law...love...the situation is as follows : 1-adam and eve...true community...2-agenda enters the picture...3-someone takes power...4-people are manipulated...5-ideas become god...(science / religion / sex / etc.)...6-conformity is imposed...7-institutionalized...despising little cults make us feel better about our big cult...much the same way sexually ambiguous people disdain gay people...so turn around...be who you are...and encourage others to do the same.   

power

if your last name is shit...and you decide to name your child...dick...you think you may have...on some level or another...exercised power over your child...thing is...all you have really done...is declared to the world that you are some ass hole...who really does not care about the welfare of your kid...and...by the way...there are a billion ways to name him dick shit without literally naming him dick shit...and you may fool a lot of people...but no matter how fucked up and confused this world becomes...beneath it all...the truth is still the truth .

chernobyle

a few decades ago...the nuclear power plant known as  chernoble had a meltdown that caused the entire area to be evacuated eternally...thing is...since all the people have gone...the plant and animal life has flourished unlike ever before...that is to say...the human race is more dangerous than a nuclear meltdown...just something to think about .

yeti vs sasquatch...from the book / "there is a fly in my dingo-wombat"

it is well documented by science
that the sasquatch
by all accounts
has a larger cock
than the yeti
these dumb fuckers
(the scientists
not the apes)
seem to have forgotten
one little thing
it is colder on top of a mountain
than it is in california
have they never heard
of shrinkage???

the fingure

so there i am watching this movie on t .v...and there in front of me is this fellow with his hand caught in some sort of machine or another...just as this scene appears on screen...the phone rings...a friend of mine had just got his hand  caught in a machine...and was essentially the exact same injury in both situations .

the art of trust part 1

whitehorse page 9

i have a friend...he cannot speak very well...in a wheel chair...a wonderful human...but has essentially nothing people want...i have another friend...wealthy...articulate...successful and the like...i always thought it would make a good movie...the first friend interacting with certain individuals...then my other buddy would interact with them in the very next scene...my point??? people behave correspondingly to what they can get out of the situation... life is like one big job interview...and the more people want the job...the better they behave...which brings us to the question...who can you trust??? that is...who is your friend??? good question...let us explore .

how to find freedom

being human part 18

the fact of the matter is...in religious institutions that perpetuate violently condemning "sinful" behavior and suggesting that people who partake in such things are , more or less , on their way to hell...the exact opposite of their "goal" is accomplished...it works like this : guilt and fear perpetuate an adrenaline rush throughout the body...hence...one becomes addicted to the very behavior that is being condemned by the religious institution...for example...if homosexuality is being judged as something that will eternally damn your soul...the body will seek out the behavior that relives the adrenaline rush that happened during the proclamation of that particular message...in essence...we become what we hate...the events that perpetuate themselves after this dynamic manifests...we will discuss at another time...until then...just remember...only love heals...live love .

the church had life backwards

i am probably the only nude model / minister in the entire universe...strange...i mean...if god created the human body...one would think that these two occupations would sort of go together...the truth is however...all my minister "buddies"...seem to think that this side occupation is somewhat anti-christian...or something...anyway...life goes on...luv stu

the d .v.d. player...from the book / "there is a fly in my dingo-wombat"

in a certain department store
a lady was trampled
by a mob
rushing to get
a 30 dollar d.v.d. player
of course
someone had the footage on video
and sold it for 32 dollars
but it came with bonus material
like when the manager
went to visit her
in the hospital
to offer her a bribe
and they ended up screwing
as her husband walked in

my girlfriend...

my girlfriend screwed santa

grade 11...she was my second girlfriend...it was the summer time...i came home from camp on my break and went straight to her house...she had moved to toronto...i went to see a friend and do just a bit of mourning...there i was informed that my sweet little girl had screwed some guy named justice in a closet at someones party not too long before...the next scene...1985...christmas time...shopping at the local mall...i hear..."ho ho ho"...i look over...and there is my good old friend justice playing santa for all the little girls and boys...that is...in so many words...my girlfriend screwed santa clause...and yes...i did laugh .

my little friend

my little friend

i have a little friend...she met this wonderful young man on the internet...they masturbated together in cyborg space day and night...it was beautiful...unfortunately however...his camera would not work properly...so...although he could see her masturbate...she could not see him...this went on for some time...vacations booked to visit each other...seemed to always fall apart...strange how things however can suddenly make sense with just one little piece of information...and what is this piece of information , you ask...lets just put it this way...he was a she...the end .

November 16

the third universe oct. 29 2011

god created this universe...implying that the spiritual is far more real then the physical...in our universe everything is slowly falling apart...it is its nature to do so...in gods universe...there is no decay...it is simply perfect in every respect...and this brings us to a third universe...which is where the spiritual interacts with the physical...point being...our lives touch another manifestation of existence...indeed...our lives struggle to find peace with all things spiritual...and we are to allow this unfathomable dynamic of existence to slowly  saturate our being...allowing true life to be birthed inside of us...we are to allow love to rule our fragmented and doomed physical bodies...live luv .

the idiot

the idiot

i used to work in the inner city...there was this one fellow who owed "organized crime" quite a bit of money...so they forced him to prostitute himself...this drug dealer...(his supervisor)...was talking to another individual while he was "doing tricks"...he eventually returned and the drug dealer asked him how much money he had made...his reply..."none..i was just building up our clientele"

Chucky

chucky gets a hand job

summer camp...the year...1987...it is chapel time...a kid in my cabin...charles...is sitting at the front with some young lady...a blanket wrapped around them...now , charles and i had a good relationship...he would tell me just about anything...and so he did...(for better or worse)...you see...apparently...essentially...during church...charles got jerked-off by this girl...i mean...what are you supposed to say to a boy under such circumstances??? so i said...not a whole lot...i would save it for later...much later...until 2007...scott and myself recorded over 40 albums in an 18 month period...one of which included the "hit single"..."chucky got a hand job in the chapel".  

the bad guys

the year...1983...in a line to see some movie or another...as usual...acting like an idiot...just behind me there is a lady...she is glaring at me and my friend...she identifies us as an inferior species of some sort or another...suddenly appears a gang of kids obviously from the not so nice part of town...they begin to swarm some other child not known to any of us...i save his ass...the "bad" kids all disappear...now the lady smiles at me...thing is...i had not changed a bit...the same person exactly...point...do not judge unless you got all the facts...and remember...all the facts hide the invisible facts under their sweaters...tread lightly , puppy-cats...give mercy and live love...luv stu

November 12

fuckeldee-duck-duck

i just invented a word...it is fuckeldee-duck-duck...meaning...it all went to shit...or...it all went fuckeldee-duck-duck...i want you to begin using this word in your every day language...and we can all sit back and see how far and fast fuckeldee-duck-duck travels around the world .

stories

the fact of the matter is that a persons life and all that happens within that context...will reflect just who and what they are...that is to say...if you follow this blog...and it appears that simply too many fucked up and supernatural things have happened to one individual...there is a reason for that...and the reason is not coincidence...have a nice day...luv stu

just outside salem

just outside salem...i am going for a walk...suddenly i feel , but do not see...a bolder drop just in front of my feet...then i look to a field on my right...and see the illuminated outline of a man bashing open the head of another with a bolder...seconds later...an automobile attempts to run me over...i jump into the ditch...thus saving my life .

the grapes

i remember playing in the yard one day and my father calling me to come inside...the only thought i had was that it was time for another beating...but no...he wanted to share some grapes with me...how screwed up our minds can become...500 beatings...then one order of grapes and you just want to forget about all the abuse...our needs want to control us...and they can find any excuse they desire...what ever your needs are...place truth first.

perspective

the moment that someone becomes more important to you than you are yourself...that moment is the moment you grow up...it changes ones perspective on just about everything...your heart and mind are filled with the knowledge that if maturity is not reached...someone could be hurt...point...love leads one into all spiritual and emotional truth.

ritual

the essence of ritual...is to contrive a formula that simulates righteousness...and avoids the realty of the situation... church is filled with rituals...and so is our heart...a true lover will pound away at these rituals...until...what is revealed is the person within...luv stu

trick or treat...

so these two 20 year old girls decide to go trick or treat...they come up to this one house...and find that the girl handing out candy is only 17 years old...they say to her..."aren't you a bit too young to do this?"...indeed...find out what someone is self righteous about...and find out what lies just beneath the surface...and as for those homophobic individuals...we all all know what they are thinking about in their spare time .   

god speaks

i was walking down a city street the other day...and i found myself passing a piece of plastic on the sidewalk...thinking nothing of it...i continue...then god speaks to me...he tells me the name of the person written upon the card...it is the same name as a friend of mine...so i stop...turn around...walk back...and sure enough the last name that is printed is the exact last name as my  wayward friend...as for the first name...different...but i look up its meaning on the internet...and it describes perfectly his present emotional and spiritual condition...and what does this all mean??? there is perfect order to this universe...and just because we don't understand it...does not mean sweet fuck all .

acin

just ran into this young lady with a beautiful puppy...she told me his name is acin...then explained that it means  ...strong and healthy boy...a few minutes later...i am walking down the street...and a man asks me how i am doing today...i reply..."i am feeling very acin today , thank you sir"...i think it fucked him up just a tad .

math

so what happens in life
is that an idea
makes sense to someone
so then they proceed
to bring it
into existence
thing is
just because it makes sense to you
does not mean
it is not retarded
but people just simply
do not take this
into consideration

in the grocery store

so there i was in isle 5...and who should be down that particular canyon of pickles and shit...but my old friend from jr. high...so i ducked out fast and headed for the cashier...of course however...within seconds my old buddy would meander his way directly behind me...yup...just like i knew he would...it is like this , puppy-cats...life is simply going to happen the way it fucking wants to...we can manipulate and control all we want...but...in the end...we will discover that our resistance was only like that of a pebble in a river...possibly diverting the flow for a second...maybe two...but that is about it...fight it or go with it...the universe is a current carrying us all to our final destination...so...live luv !!!

role reversal

so there i am...trying to help this couple through some personal issues...unfortunately...it was quite obvious to me that she was the man in the relationship...and he was the woman...question...should i say anything??? you gotta go with who you are and what you got...otherwise...all will be in ruins...now...i won't tell you if i said anything or not...but i will say this...sometimes people are open to truth...sometimes not...and only the wise will know the difference.