proving the existance of god part 2

here's the shit...basically we react to god in a violently aggressive manner...yet it is our nature to appear otherwise...hence , we develop religious ideologies to compensate for the intensity of the dark and disturbed reaction...yet , there is the odd individual...who not only does not feel compelled to run away from god...but , instead , feels the need to embrace his nature and allow it to guide their life...in other words...a divine love becomes the source of a very few...why only a few ??? who the fuck knows .