the hurting

possibly the most emotionally devastating words ever said to me...were..."fine...how are you???"...they  implied that i was unlovable...deserved no good thing...and ultimately , had no worth as a human being...strange...is it not..."go fuck yourself" can be a term of endearment...(and this besides the fact that fucking yourself is a lot of fun)...i was 18 years old when i had to deal with the former statement...and i still remember how small and insignificant i felt...the irony of the situation was that he got to keep his appearance of moral superiority...i mean..."fine....how are you???"...is a billion miles away from even the border of controversy...so he won on all accounts...that is...if you disregard the fact that truth resonates across the universe like ripples in a bath tub , regardless of what others may think or feel...you know...besides the fact that nobody can really cover-up anything...they can only push the monster under the bed for a short , brief season .