making hurt beautiful part 2

truth is a beautiful thing...though it can hurt like hell...it eventually leads you into a place of joy...relationship...and security...point...a spiritual experience eventually leads you into a greater understanding of yourself and your sexuality...no more overcompensation...in fact...the time you spend with the ones that truly love you...is the time that strips away the pretension that life attempts the build around you...in other words...true  relationship is a form of prayer...and leads you into not only understanding all truth...but becoming all truth...love conquers all .

making hurt beautiful part 1

sexual development for most people : growing up in a homophobic judgmental environment...that is...north america...dynamics :1-the issue develops...cannot do a frigging thing about it actually...that is simply how children respond...they internalize and make it -whatever it is- a part of themselves...2-it finds new life...just like mold in a dark place...sorta...3-an overcompensation begins...there is a war within and some really dark crap makes its journey to the surface in the most peculiar way...4-the fruits are...self righteousness...judgment...religion...anger and bitterness...that is to say...this homophobic religious thing has nothing to do with god...and the bastards know it on some level...god is just a means to cover up their own homosexual issues...and...5-the person institutionalizes them self...no longer pliable...in fact...their attitude is reflected in their entire personhood...not only in the area they are overcompensating in...there must be an escape !!!

the apostle song / from the album : "the second coming"

the apostles liked to fidget with their nuts
one or two times per day
paul did too
in his canoe
and three of the twelve were gay

chorus :
it's the apostle song
take them literally
you can if you want but not me
everybody has a sexuality
even if they are from gallilee

john had a fetish for tits
tom liked to play with notty bits
judas was a perv
who had a dog named merv
and screwed him from the time he had zits

chorus :

mary got a vibrator from sears
sometimes it brought her to tears
james was self righteous
until he got caught
sleepng with all those other queers

chorus :

footnote : if you think this is about the apostles...you are sadly mistaken...the song is about the human condition...we are all just people...and we all have our own personal hang-ups and flaws...no matter how gifted or spiritual we believe we are .

an ode to the person who referred to my geese (cartoons) as turtles

listen , buddy...i know i can't draw worth shit...but here is the thing...they have long necks...walk on two legs...and have feathers...what ever in the fuck they are...they certainly aren't turtles...or maybe...you just don't know what a turtle is...which means...in all likely-hood...you are from outer space...and that means you have achieved warp speed...and that means...you have the technology to fry my brains...which brings us to the beginning...that being...did you like my turtles ???  

where evil grows oct. 22 2011

          
our environment will eventually make sense to us...regardless how perverse or bizarre it may be
dynamics :

1-garden of eden
2-enters the snake
3-snake lies to us
4-we believe the lie because of...a) laziness...b) fear...c)consensus...d) lack of love
5-institutionalize the lie
6-make others believe it...lies demand the conversion of others to reinforce them
7-society moves on

a prophetic voice must enter...society at large will believe just about anything
dynamics :

1-garden of eden
2-enters snake
3-snake lies to us
4-we do not believe the lie...a) love...b) humility...c) communication...d) community
5-organic....authentic life grows
6-truth needs no defense...nor does it impose itself...(no violence) 
7-individuals move on...most follow own inclinations

live love

the loons...from the book / "there is a fly in my dingo-wombat"

the lake was calm
placid and still
the sun was rising
there was no wind
the lake was like glass
all was reflected perfectly
everything was peaceful
all but the loons
screaming obscenities at god
saying things like "fuck"
bashing their heads
against the rocks
and foaming at their mouths
those bastard loons
just would not get
with the plan

love and power august 27 2011

what do you do when the person you love more than life itself does not give a fuck about anything but them self ??? the fact of the matter is that most see "love" as an opportunity for power...to love someone in the most real sense of the word does not go over very well...it is simply an assumption that another is getting some neurotic need met...or is fulfilling some cultural ritual or another...love as an end to itself is a very rare and threatening thing...many dynamics , there are...not the least of which is exposing the emptiness of the average relationship...non-the-less...in the final analysis...all we are is the REAL love that we make...live luv!!!