how not to project on others part 1

just gotta wonder

my journey led me to believe that , if anything...i was probably a little bit more heterosexual than i thought...but it did not have to be that way...and that would have been fantastic too...the point , however...is that in order to become fully human...you must take the road of becoming fully human...the road of self discovery...it is a spiritual path...the only spiritual path that matters...(opposed to one of rituals and modified behaviors that fit you into some artificial paradigm)...god is love...and love is everything beautiful...so you can just imagine what will accompany you alone the way...sure truth is more difficult...but what else matters ??? live luv !!!

quest for balance

whitehorse pages part 5

a few decades ago...the australian government introduced the cain toad into australia to , essentially , eat all the cain beetles and , in doing so , create a healthier place to raise a family...problem was...the little bastards ate everything but the cain beetle...the result...billions of toads roaming aimlessly across the land...consuming everything in sight...point...every time we manipulate our environment...it goes to a bad place...and it is the same with our lives...we direct ourselves thinking we know what is best...thinking our plans will bring peace and balance to our lives...fact of the matter is...we do not have all the information we need to make such decisions...fact of the matter is...what we believe will be good for us...is often spiritually fatal...in 1979...john stewart had a song on his "bombs away dream babies" album entitled..."hand your heart to the wind"...good advice...embrace the humility to let go...simple love...and see where it takes you...among other things...love is a current...put yourself in the middle...and see what happens...that is to say...live love .

foot washing service

many years ago...in my ministry...we had a foot washing service...years later...a particular girl in that service became my girlfriend...now i do consider myself a spiritual person...but let me tell you this...i enjoyed licking her tits much more than i enjoyed washing her feet...luv stu

June 9

realism june 4 2011

there is our truth...then there is the real truth...one needs no defense...the other is defended violently so it can be sustained...dynamics :

1-there is truth
2-perceived as irrelevant
3-a new truth is pursued
4-appearance is modified to make it look more reasonably
5-violently defended
6-others are persuaded to join the cause...bullshit has to be reinforced
7-patterns...habits...rituals all emerge to take the place of authentic interaction    

the solution is love...love is real...and will not tolerate false truths in its presence...and the life that results from this is organic...that is to say...two hearts interact...not two schemes of how to get your own way .

intimacy part 5

a foot note

having said what has now been said...it also must be stated that , although there is a general fear of same sex intimacy that saturates our culture...it is also true that people will very comfortably state that what they truly need...is a real relationship with someone of the same sex...i refer to this as "the rocky effect"...that is to say...everyone wants to identify with the character of rocky (of the 1976 movie)...the truth is however , that kind of courage is very hard to come by...understand???

June 7