selah part 18

before i tell you what you probably already know...(if you have been following)...let us talk of a halloween party...first part of the zero decade...costume party , it was...and i went as a nude model...you know...naked...and from that day forward i would wear no clothes at selah...i mean besides when i was preaching...and how did this effect the dynamic of the group , you ask...by this time...our church had become a family...still some "weeding out" to do...but a family non-the -less...organic relationship is real...church is institutionalized relationship...that is...various forms of rituals that help one avoid the truth of what is really going on...luv stu

Aug 5

selah part 17

my community sent me on a vacation...(two years ago in two weeks time)...stayed in the woods...went for hikes...drank in the bath tub...cried over a relationship that had fallen on hard times...but something was different...strange...there i was in the tub...listening to either the cooper brothers or the beatles...abby road...fuck...somebody was there...i couldnt see him...but he brought a present...joy unspeakable...when my best friends wife died...i went to another friends house that night so we could cry...drink...and such...on the way to his car...i accenintally threw my sweater down the garbage shoot...so screwed up that i thought it was the garbage...when i got to the car ,however...there it was in the back seat...had a hunch...the guy by my tub...the same guy who put my sweat there...but this time...he wanted to give me more than a sweater...intimacy...luv stu

selah part 16

sometimes when you run away from something...you run right into what you were running away from...fuck...probably most of the time...due to circumstances too painful to relate...i just wasnt capable...of giving kids the time and love they need...there are very few important lessons to learn from life...just lessons of love...and how to appreciate good music...rising to the occasion...is one of those lessons in love...two beautiful little girls...now that there mother was gone...needed mr. stu to become uncle stu...sometimes the hardest things in life...are also the most rewarding...i just hope i did a good fucking job...luv stu

selah part 15

i walk into the bank...someone in front of me says to someone behind me..."how ya doing???" the reply...not too well...one of my best friends just died"...then he says the name...i know him...his brother was a good friend of mine as a child...but there is more to it than that...i feel something...this is no coincidence...next day...i see his brother for the first time in years...walking around in a grocery store...in some kind of state of shock...over the next three months...three people i love dearly all die prematurely...one of which...my best friends wife...luv stu

Aug 2

selah part 14

in a two year period...i was attacked approximately 200 times in the night and or early morning by demonic forces...i identified 6 to 9 uniquely different spiritual entities...at first...it was a clusterfuck...they held me down...i was helpless... i could barely say the name..."jesus"....and i would somehow be set free from their grasp...by the end...the roles were reversed...i could do push ups with the fucking creatures on my back...i could describe this shit until the "cows come home"...but i wont...suddenly...it was gone...within days , however...it would be replaced by something far worse...death...luv stu